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Thu, Nov. 11th, 2004, 05:12 pm
Thu, Nov. 11th, 2004, 04:07 pm
Well ijsut downloaded Firefox, and i am impressed. Its so fast and is so compatibale with my slow piece of shit ocmputer. it works well for my aliant high speed too. Do you thin my computer will get mad at me if i uninstal IE...yea it wouldn't browse anymore would it??? Shit. I've been flipping through blog explosion as usual and i've been seeing a lot about that guy who got 9 years in prison for spam email. Can you imagine what he must be going thorugh in prision. He mihgt as well have a tatoo on his for-head that reads "bitch." So i've been looking into ways to make money off this blog. Any ideas from you guys? I need to get my bank information so i can verify my pay pal account. After i do that i'm plannng to post a donate button on here. But i was wondering....do they accutual get results? I mean in my situation it would be extremely appreciated if it did, but i've seen them on a lot of blogs and wb sites and i was curious if they actually work...so if you have any idea of how well they work, then tell me. I'de like to know. Woot i just won 25 credits on blog explosion. Mackenzie is pushing me to the max. Every two seconds is "mommy" "MOMMY" and its in here whiny little voice that i hate. arg! I love her to bits. I really do, but se has this whine that would even make cheeze taste like shit. You know how everyone kon blog explosion is talking about Free IPods.com. Now i guess this is a really crediable site. But i have a complaint... ITS NOT AVAILABLE TO CANADIANS!!!! Iw went to sign up for i, and i tryed to put in my address and it is aboslutely imposible to do so. I've tried on a whole bunch of diffeent free-stuff web sites as well thinking that maybe..just maybe I might find a loop hole. of course i didn't. Why do canadians always have to be expluded from these things.. I've discovered a great channel on Kazaa. Its called superdudes.s Its a game. Like magic and yu-ghi-oh, but on the computer. Its funness. but it keeps forgeting my username. So i've signed up for it like 4 times. Its pissing me off. Does anyone like the new changes on Kazaa. i use the freeware of it and i really dislike the users of Kazaalite right now. see Kazaa Freeware users cannot d/led off of Kazaalite but it still links to it so you can 'think" that you are d/leding frm them. But everytime you d/l something from KazaLite it is a 20 minute long file. It sucks!!! So i think i might go vist Jim over christmas break. that would be fun. I know i'm going to go see ryan, and i'm hoping to spend christmas with him and his family so they can have a christmas with mackenzie so it should be easier for me to go spend some time with jim. that would be awesome. we've been talking for years and ..wow i really can't wait to meet him. YaY! I've come to the conclusion that you need to be a paid member to get a haf decent livejournal going...so i think that if i get enough money going on the net, i might just put osme of it towards livejournal . Its an idea.  *HUGS* TOTAL! give killthesmiley more *HUGS*Get hugs of your own Probate Lawyer
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Canada, New Brunswick, Woodstock, English, Kelly, Female, 16-20, Wicca, Paganism.
I'm sitting here playing Uno (thanks again ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) thenth77) and i'm bored out of my freaking mind. I added a counter on the page. Cool huh. I really wish tho that i could have it in the side bar tho. Same thing with the hugs. Oh well. I've been trying to keep up with blogexplosion. Its getting kind of hard. I kind of hope that i'll win the Lotto so i can get more credits so i don't have to surf all the time. Its fun to surf but it gets tiering. Last night tho i won 100 creds in the mystery thingy. That was awesome! BAH THEY CHANGED THE COLOR ON ME... this is awesome *HUGS* TOTAL! give killthesmiley more *HUGS*Get hugs of your ownProbate Lawyer
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Wed, Nov. 10th, 2004, 06:59 pm
I forgot to write about school..that would be useful huh? Well first things first, a late day today. We started class around 1 which was awesome! I cam in early to hang out and print off the assignment (which there will be more on later). Talked to silver_insanity and jason and Matt and Curt-y (haha sorry). Told them about my friend who won the iPod from pepsi. Matt defended me when jason tore me down (haha sorry). WE talked about being prostitutes. Critiqued our work..well their work because buddy wasn't off my comuter (fuck i hate that). Got a smnoke of matt-y (hahaha) promised him i'de "pay him back" the hilight of my day...haha. Anyways..so yea. My assignment is that great. I don't really know what i should have writen seeing i was barely there in class for the past couple f weeks. So i really don't know what she wants. So this will be a learning experience in its self. After class me and matt and curt hung out in the lounge. That was fun we watched much music and watched some guys play pool. that was amuzing. they were waiting for joe to finish up with the one on one with vic. Which he was only in there for like 10 minutes. I went in and saw Vic after him. Mine went good. He gave me the difinition of active and passive voice. I complete did not understand that at all. I even couldn't remember what it was called. Well..he didn't really say anything other then that. He asked if everything was ok personally. And i was just saying yes whatever ....in my fake little tone. of course nothing is ok..but thats not the point. He asked if this is what i really wanted to do. And of course i said yes...but really i'm not to sure anymore. and that was it. I walked home. Looked for my "someone" to see if he had left yet. See if i could get my goodbye kiss that he promised me today that he never gave me...fucking guys wouldn't leave us alone. I swear people are going to start figuring us out. Which..i don't know. I know i don't really want that to happen beause i like the mystery and keeping peope on their toes. Oh well. What ever. My computer is being fucking slow as fuck! Oh and thank you Tenth77 for introducing me to UNO!!!! I'm fucki9ng addicted now!! *HUGS* TOTAL! give killthesmiley more *HUGS*Get hugs of your own
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Well.... My "someone" left to go home to his parents. It was an uneventful goodbye too. I even got questioned today about whats going on between us today too..haha that was amusing. Well actually we both did... Anyways, so i'm stuck home all weekend. All long LONG weekend. We had most of today off. We have tommorow off becasue its Remeberance day, the friday because what's the point of having thursday off, thengo to school for friday??So...yea. It was great today. Very relaxed. No one, and i mean no one showed up. So i'm trying to figure out if i want to go home. Because if I really want to go home to st john, i bet you i could. And i think Tina would love to have me and mackenzie. Well more so mackenzie, but whatever. That jsut gives me more time to hang out with friends. I think i may call her tonite see if i can score a trip to st john...then maybe i can run into "someone". My IE has been really messing up lately. I don't like it. I saw this commercial last night for "The Geek Squad". I should call them!! my computer is so fuck pathetic. I've been thinking that maybe i would try to get a good deal on a computer and sell this piece of shit. I need something a little faster and with more memory. That would serve my purposes better. Bah.. *HUGS* TOTAL! give killthesmiley more *HUGS*Get hugs of your own
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Wed, Nov. 10th, 2004, 10:05 am
Well...i am feeling a little better this morning. I had a great sleep .It really was great. I walked mackenzie to DayCare and came home and had a shower. My class uisn't until 1:10 so i'm cooling it . Anyways, i talked to "someone" this morning while i walked home. He saw me walking by his house and he came out to talk. He knew i was depressed because i sems kind of upset before he left last night. I guess he's worried about me or somehting. I told him last night that i really wanted to leave woodstock. I guess i'm depressed and upset because everyone is going home this weekend, and i'm not. And i'de really want to got to pictou and see the last wreath laid for SGT Green who was killed in the friendly fire incident. WEll..its the last wreath hs family is laying for a while. I guess its kind of the lonely-ness factor too. I'm alone, and i don't like it .I've never been this alone before, and its starting to get to me. I'm use to being miss-always-have-someone-around-to-hang-o ut-with type girl. I was never alone, and here i am ... alone. *HUGS* TOTAL! give killthesmiley more *HUGS*Get hugs of your own
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Tue, Nov. 9th, 2004, 11:35 pm
So...is it that wong to be sitting alone on your bed after a great experience and bring in tears... I was sitting in my bed with "someone", and we're awatching sex and the city. The best show, all of them exceptcharlotte are idols to me. And its the one when carrie told aiden that she cheated on him with big. This show is a big show. Charlotte gets married. Carrie looses th one man she really loved. And Samantha fucks a scots man. Right after "someone" left, the scene where aiden comes back to the wedding to break up with carrie after being told she 's been cheating on me came on. It was really emotional and really sad. But the big pont of the whole scene was that she had friends there for her. Life long friends who loved her for who she was. No matter what she did/does. I feel extremely lonely right now. Even tho the experience that I have been having lately with "someone" has been absolutely amazing and i'm so greatful towards him, i feel like , i should be able to turn back time. Back to grade ten. And i start to think, what would i change, and where would i be now if none of this mess ever happened? I just really want to go home. i want to be back around familiarity. I miss the guys. I miss the environment. I just miss. Ryan always says to me that life has been taken away from him. His happyness yhas been stole. I feel as if this is the perfect discription of how i feel. I feel like i was ripped away from my home. And i just want to be back where i feel comfortable. I miss it so much. So what should i do? Should I 1) Pack up everything and leave collee and go get ajob back home, and just..live life the way i want to. or should i 2) stay here. My mind is telling me that I have to stay here. It's the smartest thing to do. But my heart is telling me that i can't handle it. I can't even handle paying for my anti-depressants to keep me from feeling like this. But back home..i wouldn't be able to afford anything either. I feel so helpless and hopeless right now. I hate feeling like that. But i have this feeling that if i had someone, like a significant other in my life instead of all these fuck around guys that everything would be better. But that goes back to my theory and the sex and the city theory. Do women need to be saved? DO women really need that Knight in Shining Armor? Are women pushed and pushed so much into that fairy tale life, that that is what they need to feel happy? And i mean i'm not talking about every woman..i'm talking about the stereotypical woman. Which i never thought I was..but the more i live on my own, the more i relize that i am. I'm not the guy's girl that i thought i was...i'm not the whore i thought i was. I am actually the day-dreaming ditzy woman who all she really wants is to have that man and to have that family and to liive happily ever after in a white house with green grass a flower bed on each side of the door and a white picket fence. The mor and more i am here..i relize..this is what i want. I want the career...but i want to be bare foot and pregnant. Is this .. normal?And if so..why is it normal for women who believe so much in "girl power" to want this? Is it because we've been brought up in fairy ale life? Is it because we were taught that we are a princess on our wedding day? Is it because that idea is showved down our throat constantly.. I'm extremely depressed. And i really really need someone here..but"someone" left to go home and sleep. I just need someone that will let me cry on their (his) shoulder, and let me cry to sleep... *HUGS* TOTAL! give killthesmiley more *HUGS*Get hugs of your own
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..isn't eminem supposed to be a lyrical genuis.,.why can't he use proper grammar...OH YEA IT DOESN'T FIR THE 8 BEAT!!arg i hate it whe people try to rap but they don't even know about the 8 beat. arg! (sorry matt) So my heat's fixed. my neighboor came over to fix it. I guess it wasn't broken, yu ou just need to hit it the right way..arg. silver_insanity says i should start looking for a new place, but i've grown quit attached to this place already. I like it. surfing arund blog explosion, and extremely bored. Ryan is doing a lot better then before. He really got my depressed last night though, but i can't talk about that. but i'm happy that he's doing a lot better. he's learning to get a lot of things off of his chest. and i'm happy he trusts me. I've been tempted lately to checkout blogger. A couple of people on blog explosion said its not the greatest..but i don't know. i jsut need something tht fits my needs a little bit better. Something that is a little more convienent with links. I'm reelly happy with blog explosion right now. Please join up with my referal link (bellow) it's great. And do lots of surfing with them!! its awesome jawesome. Well jusat saw Motoki's Log. If anyone has been following it, theres bad news. I'm heart broken. I really am. Why and how could something so terrible happen to such a little individual. I don't get it. Why would the spirit allow this to happen. Its just...unbelievable. My thoughts are with that family. I love them, and i don't even know them. My heart really does go to them. well...i think this will be it for this post. i'm going to post a whole post of purchasable books here soon...and i think i'm goingn to do that once a week...sound good?? good *HUGS* TOTAL! give killthesmiley more *HUGS*Get hugs of your own
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Canada, New Brunswick, Woodstock, English, Kelly, Female, 16-20, Wicca, Paganism.
Well.. I watched the documentary Forbidden Forests. It's interestinf. Not my type of thing, but it i interesting. I'm starting to get my encouragement back. I just finished my inro to journalism assignment. hopefully Susan won't loose this one and tell me i acutally didn't do it (fuck i hate her) when i actually passed it into her, gave it to her in her hadn and she read it right there in front of me and told me I did a great job (fuck fuck fuck). So yea i'm sitting here listenig to Duayne going on about the Meeche Lake accord. Fuck i need to study that stuff. If anyone sees me on msn tonight tell me to get the fuck off and study! and clean! lol. My Kitchen is a complete disaster area! its unreal! its like a fucking hurricane hit it. I guess it doesn't help that i've been drunk every night for the past week. So i think i'm developing a problem with that. So i'm happy that i'm too broke to afford liquor right now. and i need a smoke. Omg do i ever need a smoke. I really really need a smoke.BAH~!!! I'm hungry..what should i make for supper. I had ham last night. I'm thinking about doing hot dogs. Maybe. I want to invite someone over, but he's busy tonight. So..i guess not. : (. oh well. a crush is a crush, never true love.
So i just got out of bernies class..me and mat are sitting here, he's studying and i'm doing shit all. Hey i'm a slakcer and i'm damn proud of it...is matt flirting with me..haha no! so anyways, great news girls!!! i'm excitedmed! haha anyways.. I'm bored as fuck, i'm ging to start my new painting tonight. that will be fun. I sketched out the idea this morning. Its going to turn out good i hope. I really hope. I'm going to start working on idea article! Liz you'll be proud...
BAH! I hate school. I'm sitting here waiting for bernie's class to begin. It's like in 1 hour. Last night was interesting too. I've been having tons of interesting nights. Jell-o shooters!!! haha! I loved them. The guyz came over for a bit. Watched tv...they left. One of them cam back for some jell-o slushies tho. He was absolutely amazed that you couldn't taste the liquor in them at all. What can i say, I know how to mix drinks well. So other then that, my night was really blah. I sat on the interenet and did nothing. ~giggles~ i have special news for special people tho..only those special people can know too...big discussin on msn tonight! HHAHA! ANyways, i'm wearing my "sexy shirt" as Matt calls it. I thought i'de feel happy today, so i got all done up this morning, but then i overdressed and walked mac to Daycare and got all sweaty. I feel really gross. So i'm dreading Vic's one on ones. Shannon was really touched by the generosity Vic has. Thats great. I'm slowly getting sdiscouraged in the course tho. I don't know. I really think its the attitude that Susan has beendishing out that has been discouraging me. I mean i don't blame her for shing it out o me, because i've been late for everyone of her classes...and latly i've been having actual troubles gtting to her class that are out of my hands, but it doesn't seem like she cares anymore. It really discourages me. I'm extremely discourage. i jsut wish some of my instructors relized that befor its too late and i call i quits. I've been croaking for a smoke all weekend. Fucking someone stole my money. Joe won't fess up to it, and i'm kind of thinking that maybe he did't take the money off my desk, but i don't relly know. I have to write an article for Idea...I have to soon. I've been slacking off alot lately on that project. I will write one tonite, and maybe incorperate active-passive voice into it...arg!!! GRAMMAR!!! fuck! So everyone is going away this week on wednesday seeing we don't have any classex thursday or friday, and most of our classes on wednesday are canceled. I'm staying around. It's going to get lonely wihtout the guys around. Bah!! I have to remember to write my sports article. Vic gave me and extention on it, because i have a really hard time writing about sports. I hate it! I love sports...i can't write about sports. Oh well....
Sun, Nov. 7th, 2004, 02:59 pm
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Sun, Nov. 7th, 2004, 01:00 pm
So last night was...wierd.. I got...drunk. Needless to say, i didn't need to, but whatever. Joe and one of his buddies from home showed up. We sat and watched part of 8 Mile. They conviently left before the sex scene..my favorite scene. Bah. Anyways, i'm missing my smoke money. My $8.50 for nuymber 7s. It was infront of my moniter, and then joe goes to use the computer...and its not there when i go to check for it. SO...Joe stole my fucking money. great eh. So now he not only owes me 11 smokes, but now 8.50...fucker. He thought he could get away with it. Yea fucking right. I wanted them to stay and do jell-o shooters with me..So my jell-o shooters are still in the fridge. Waiting for someone to eat them . So i'm waiting for people to come over to do jell-o shooters with me. (haha nee_nay xxchrissypooxx jell-o spooners!!) But last night was interesting. I'm a little pissed off about the money, and them taking off just like that. It wasn't very cool. But i was pretty drunk already when they showed up, so i don't really blame them for taking off. So this morning, i'm extremely frustrated. I don't feel so great, and mac is pushing my buttons big time. I made a huge breakfast, so maybe i can get past the hang over, and its some what working. I want more scambled eggs though. So..mmm scrambled eggs. Yea...so if you guys (the boyz) read this : The jell-o shooters are ready..come over tonight and shoot it up with me.. Wishing that the girls from freddy were here so we could do jell-o spooners together. I miss them already. ~sniff sniff~ Is it bad that on your grocery list there is a list of alcohol??? I unno.
This is my blogchalk:
Canada, New Brunswick, Woodstock, English, Kelly, Female, 16-20, Wicca, Paganism.
Sat, Nov. 6th, 2004, 05:07 pm
i think this is amusing... Your Penis Name is: Big Lebowski
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hehehe i knew it!